Hi guys, long time no chat! I’ve been AWOL on here for the past few weeks…months even! I was going to make a comeback with a food-related post, but I figured it would be reckless to not share the reason for my not-so-little “disappearance”.
A few things have changed for me recently. I started my service year in Nigeria…started working a proper 9-5 job for the first time in my life…moved to the most metropolitan state in Nigeria, Lagos City. But to be totally honest, all of these should not be the reason to pause at things for such a long time, especially things I enjoy doing (blogging). I’d like to say I haven’t entirely enjoyed my time away from blogging for the most part being that I craved sharing my thoughts on here but wasn’t able to.
I’d also like to say secondly, that fear pisses me off so much! The fear of a new beginning has made me a tad too calculative of all my actions. I could have a great Idea in my head, and out of nowhere fearing that the outcome might not be how I envisioned it to be, would come only to knock that idea off. Fear is the biggest enemy of progress but figuring out how to navigate yourself through your fears is the crucial part. I’ve come to realize that too many people enjoy wallowing in their negative situations as well as the solicited sympathy that they get from it, and I do not want to be one of those people. I’d like to be someone who they say “walks her talk”, and I will no longer choose to stop doing something because of the fear of failing at it.
I think my job has been the major highlight of my life now. I’ve never worked a proper job…I never really liked the idea of working all day, and around the clock five days a week…you know. I just used to think God has given me a brain… and I can’t be wasting all that doing servanthood for the big men dem…lmao. Anyway, I think that thought process has changed a bit now. It’s important to know that we all start somewhere, and decision-making should be on the basis of so many tries. So, while I’ve been working my daily job, I’ve also been working with some chefs in the industry on a call-in basis, I decided to do this particularly because I do not want to lose the wonder I have for food and cooking while trying other career paths… (that’s how much I love cooking). I decided that I will be trying new things this year… exploring different career options… identifying my strengths and building on those. And so, that’s exactly what I’m doing…working, living, and enjoying life in any way I can. For sure, there have been so many times I doubted myself and became so indecisive about decisions to make, but I will forever stay grateful to God for just being the best-best friend and director of my life always.
It’s been a minute. What’s going on with you? Leave a comment below about anything as I’ll have more than enough time to reply now.
